Response

I really do not think it is the right thing to do. You will never find a love like mine, I would give an arm and a leg for you damn it. I guess you gotta do what you gotta do though. I can’t believe we broke up for something like that though. There was no reason for me, it wasn’t fair to me. I didn’t fuck up..all I did was love you too much? Ugh I hate myself for doing whatever it was that drove you away. Without you my world has been dark and gray. There is no love, no happiness. Only depression and drunk. You royally fucked me over and I don’t know how you could do that and say that you loved me. Over a year of my life, wasted. Cause you want to whore around since someone who treats you like a queen isn’t good enough. I don’t get it. You got compliments daily, flowers anytime, I came whenever you’d snap your fingers, we had so much in common, we had so much fucking fun, and I fucked you so good, what else could you possibly be looking for?? Now I have to live with the memories. All those memories. So many memories… Fuck. Why are you so immature :/

Yep

It feels so right. I know I’m not what you want but everything in my body and in the world tells me you need to be mine. I have never been more attracted to anyone. Physically and mentally. You have so much in common with me. I see you in every red ford focus. I see you in every movie, I hear you in every song. Even if you never admit it I know you think about me just as much. I have attained so much knowledge in the past couple months. I am a different person, a better person. I pray to God every night for the same thing that I wish for every 11:11, and every time I get an eyelash on my finger. You belong with me. I want to spoil you lol. But seriously I believe that this is a test, I just wanna cheat the test and get you right away. If I wait a year I am afraid you will be dramatically different. And not in a good way. I have so many things running through my mind. I tell you I have no more feelings and that I’m over you but I lie. I only have a week to embrace your company, before I start my career and probably never see you again, since you don’t want me. I hope every time you hear a love song, you think of me. I sure think of you. You were the best thing to ever be mine. You will always have my heart. I will be a single man for the rest of my life if I can’t have you. I’ll dedicate my entire life to work and I’ll be a millionaire. For now, I’m going to keep praying and hoping and wishing that you’ll come back. Until then I’ll be drunk or making money. I love you.

Every single song I hear reminds me of you. I would give up my bright future just to be with you. I am so incredibly hurt that I don’t know if I’ll be able to love again. Every single country song seriously just brings you and everything we’ve done into my mind. if I didn’t get this job I honestly probably would have ended my life. I can’t go on without you. But I’m making myself. something died inside me, and you ruined everything I ever thought of you. I just wanted to give you all of my love, hugs, and kisses. But you are not the girl I thought you were. You don’t want love. You just want to fool around with alot of people. Why am I cursed? Every girl I date turns into a whore and can’t appreciate good love. I wish there was something I could do to change your mind. I would do it without any hesitation. I’m so crushed. We were best friends and lovers which is the best combination, but you just want me out of your life. All that for nothing. When you told me you didn’t even think it was that good I wanted to hop in my truck and go drive into an oncoming semi. Nothing in life is worth it without love. Ugh that is all I want, I just want all your love but you want to give your love to others. I haven’t cried this much in years. You, the one I loved more than my own family, hurt me more than I thought was possible. I want to crawl into a hole and die. Nothing is worth it. Nothing can make it better. You are gone and my life is over. :(

The end

I put my heart on the line again and it was for nothing. That relationship was not even good apparently..well at least I’ll be able to laugh in the future, when you wish that you would’ve taken my offer. I’m going to make something of myself and I hope your life is miserable. I pray you fail at any career you go into. And I know that no one is going to treat you as good as I did and can..you said you wouldn’t break my heart but you are just a liar, just like the rest of them. I have no room for liars in my future. It fucking sucks but I’m gonna try to move on. And once that happens I promise there is no new start. You can go be a whore with 20 year old losers. “I need to grow up” well I guess by hanging around people who have no future except selling drugs you will sure grow up. Yeah right. I hope it’s easy to forget about you. Waste of time..

My life is in shambles

The Breakdown

I’m heartbroken..again I know. What did I do wrong? I gave all my heart. Flowers, compliments, and love to her. All I want is to fix this. But yet she feels like I’m trapping her so it won’t work..I fall in love too easy..all I get is my heart broken, everytime. I am lost. I don’t know what to do.

I’m broken. I guess nice guys don’t win. All I ever wanted was you..